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The Aftermath of My Mother’s Suicide Attempt
I haven’t posted in a couple of days. I’ve been dealing with family issues. I’ve hesitated about making this public, but right now, my family and I could use all the prayers we can get. I really, really want to put on my “everything is perfect” blogger hat but that would be a lie.
About two weeks ago, I found my mother unconscious in her apartment from a prescription drug overdose. I was the one who called the paramedics and honestly, I didn’t think she would pull through. It was a horrible ordeal. A fifteen hour hospital wait to see if she would stabilize. She did finally pull through but then was committed to a psychiatric facility for a few days (she had made comments to the doctors that this was an intentional suicide).
For those who don’t know, my mother has had ongoing psychiatric issues. I spent most of my childhood, bouncing around from one home to another with her due to her inability to hold down a job. She is very unstable and we do not have the best relationship. (Related post: How to Handle Dysfunctional Family Members). However, she is still my mother and it hurts me that she would decide to do this to herself.
My mother has since been released from the psychiatric facility and was temporary staying in my home as she had been deemed unable to be alone. That arrangement didn’t work out (she refuses rehab and continues abusing prescription pills) and I’m now left to explain everything to my five year old daughter.
As of this point, I have had to make the decision to back away from the situation and have limited contact as it extremely unhealthy for my family and myself.
I’ve had to handle her psychiatric episodes my entire life but I will not anymore when it affects my child. That may make me sound like a horrible person but it’s the truth.
I would appreciate any prayers you can give my family right now. While I’m trying limit contact with her, I’m still praying for the best outcome.
I’m sharing this in hope that I can touch someone else who is struggling with an addict or a relative with a psychiatric disorder. All too often, I see family members ashamed to talk about it and that’s sad. Those of us in these situations need to talk about it, to relate to others and to gain hope from those in the same place.
My posting schedule has been a little rattled from this. But, I expect to be back to normal within a few weeks.